• Long Time, No Post

    Posted on February 27th, 2009, 10:37 pm by Miss Bekka

    Stuff has happened. All ye who follow my LJ have heard it all, since I have no secrets and tell no lies. I just rarely find anything to be publicly blogworthy until it all accumulates into this big ball of… accumulation. So how do I want to go about this, I wonder… hmm.

    Well, the bad news. First and foremost.You’ll remember that my big white thundarrcat Moses passed at the end of this past summer. It was a shock to the system on so many levels… one in particular being that he bit it before Carmie, who I sometimes lovingly refer to as “Parkinson’s Kitty” and “Old Man Pants”. We always figured him to be older than Moses, so we always figured he’d move on first. When Moses went, we knew Carmie couldn’t be too far behind. This morning, about six months later, Carmie went. It’s… odd. I wasn’t there when it happened, and I didn’t “say goodbye” so I don’t have the image of his death in my mind. I also have the comfort of knowing that Mo is waiting for him. So… while it hurts… and I’ve suffered a wet face all day in private moments… I’m doing better with it than before.
    Still. Of course. He will be greatly missed… and always fondly remembered. Love you, duder…

    *sigh*

    Shaking my hands out a bit, now. There is good news. I’m doing well in all of my classes, staying on top of things (and even ahead in some respects), so my academic life contributes only minimal amounts of stress to my general life. The worst thing about this semester is, still, the driving. But not for very much longer… bringing me to good news point number two: I’m moving to Lexington. I have my address, and a tentative move-in date in two weeks. I’m not sure when Kev is coming up to hang his hat, yet… hopefully not long after. It’ll be grand to be closer to campus, but it sure would suck to have to bimble around by my lonesome for too terribly long.

    Other big news: My car broke 100k miles last week. Poor ol’ baby… I have to take it easy on her from now on, huh? Also, I’ve quit smoking. It’s been two weeks and two days since my last cigarette. Congratulate me, assheads. And finally, today is Kev’s birthday. Happy birthday again, babycaeks! Now fuckin’ blog somethin’ already!! :D


  • Getting In Gear

    Posted on January 18th, 2009, 7:58 pm by Miss Bekka

    What we have here, are placesettings. Plates, knives, forks, glasses, and all sorts of other neat and groovy things. Sadly, you have no idea what I’m talking about, as I’m not going to post photographic evidence. Which, I suppose means, “it didn’t happen”. But the fact that I experienced part of this setting-getting expedition myself, as well as Kev, who braved a sea of cheap silverware to discover a treasure by the name of Pfaltzgraff, I would say it did happen, regardless. Besides, we have the receipts.

    Meanwhile, sometime last week (more like Tuesday), my loan check arrived in the mail. Deposited it on Wednesday before class, and then went to class. First up is LOGIC, where our bastard instructor informs us that he is teaching the most difficult and fast paced section at the University, and that we should drop if we don’t like to work hard. And then Friday, after calling roll and finding that a fair portion of folk did indeed drop, informed us that it was all a lie, but we should enjoy the extra elbow-room anyway. Which still makes him sort of a bastard, but the good sort at least.
    Next up is Anthropology, which includes two papers and three exams, plus weekly recitation. Then Women and Gender Studies in the Arts and Humanities, which seems like a lot more work than it should be for such a bunny-foo-foo class. But it was nice when, as I was called out to explain why I chose Social Work as a major, and replied “because I’m nutty as a fruitcake,” she replied, “That’s exactly why I went into English.” Finally, after just barely enough of a break to shove some food down my throat, is Statistics, which I know I am going to hate. Badly. But at least the textbook isn’t required.
    I think I will be pleased with this semester. It’ll probably be more work than the last, but at least I won’t be as bored as I was in the last.

    Some new things that class[money] have heralded: A coat, three shirts, two sweaters, a fine winter hat, and two more pairs of legwarmers. All on clearance, baby! Plus the above-mentioned housewares, with two mixing bowls and a rather nice pie dish.

    Another change this past week has brought is Kev’s [Lazer] moving-in to glostix. I asked if he’d be interested in blogging together here on a whim, and he said he was down with it, so I got things all re-arranged and freshened-up for him. Looks nice, no? Don’t know how often he’ll post (not that I post very often anyway, hah!), but I’m tickled pink to have him on board :) WE has a website! Huzzah!!


  • Wrapping Up

    Posted on December 22nd, 2008, 12:53 am by Miss Bekka

    Alternatively titled: X-Mess Wrapping.

    Final grades are all in.  Two As and two Bs.  Not what I hoped for, but about what I expected.  Actually, if we can be honest here, I expected to do much worse than a B in German, considering just how much I slacked off after midterm.  Actually, I slacked off pretty freakin’ badly in all my classes after midterm.  Half of my SW lectures were slept-through or missed altogether, and I generally skipped Micro when I missed SW.  Didn’t finish required reading in Ecology.  So I should be very satisfied with what I got, and extremely frustrated at how much I didn’t do in order to get those marks.

    I could be a better person if I just tried at it.

    So now all I have to worry about are the holidays.  I’m still trying to figure out what all I need to pack.  It’s sort of strange that the less I have to pack, the more confused and flustered I get with it… constantly feeling as if I’m forgetting something.

    Clothes? Check.  Chargers? Check.  Tits?  Double-check.

    I just hope some of the drama simmers down for the holidays.  The forum for which I serve as an admin has had two punches over the last few, one very recently in the way of an article filled with copious amounts of misinformation and flat-out ignorance that directly quoted from us out of context, so I’ve been lurking pretty heavily and trying to put my best-face-forward on that front.  It’s all fun and cupcakes til you realize there are people out there who derive some perverse sense of joy from belittling a peaceful spiritual community.

    I’d wager these are folk who try and pretend they didn’t see the Salvation Army bell-ringers when they walk out of a store.  Or worse, pretend they can’t afford to spare a dollar when they’re carrying out $500 in merch for their ungrateful brat-children.

    And finally, how wrong is it that 800 miles of latitude separates two temperature ranges by 50F?  Words cannot describe the frustration.


  • You Goddamned Gay-Lovin’ Baby-Haters!

    Posted on November 18th, 2008, 11:03 pm by Miss Bekka

    I only occasionally check the Kernel… only when I am very, very bored, but one of my campus talk-to’s told me about this, and I just had to face-palm.  I mean, seriously.  It amazes me how stupid people are.  Since when does your belief Christianity define how a country without a state religion should be run?  But ah, well.  Of course this dude is afraid of transgendered and transexual people being given “special rights”… it’d challenge the monopoly on special rights that Christian[-variant]s have enjoyed since Day One of American History.

    Speaking of transgender issues, November 20th is Transgender Day of Rememberance.  An email was sent through the OUTsource circuit with names, CODs, and their dates, with a link to the case of Duanna Johnson. Reading about her attitude, pride, and defiance against the local po-po made me smile… but of course bit at my sides to know that such wit and strength was wasted, stolen, and destroyed for no good reason.  That I have friends that could meet the same fate for the same reasons absolutely terrifies me… it makes me sick to the heart and head to know I live in a world where people I love are in such danger…

    Last on my big gay agenda: HOLY SHIT I NEED TO WRITE MY SW PAPER.  Due first thing in the morning.  I suppose, with all this, I should be able to write easily on why the GLBT community needs advocates in the field of Social Work, but ease isn’t as much an issue as time.  I can’t even start on that til I whip out my German homework, which is due tonight at midnight.  There isn’t enough coffee in the world to save me.

    Three more days to plow through before my flight out to Tamparrrrgh… two more class days.  Once I get this paper done, it’ll be a breeze.  A breeeeze right into Kev’s warm, strong, loving and very nommable arms.  Arms and hands and smile and gaze and LEIJFLIJGLEIRIEWK!!!1  I start thinking like that, and three small days seem like three months of time between.  Hurry hurry.  I mean, after I get to sleep tonight, hurry.  I don’t mind having the time to wait while I need it to do class-things, hah.
    Mmmm… ahhhh.  AAAHHH!!

    Good news is that I’m only really missing one lecture next week, since everyone else pretty much decided to cancel classes on Monday and Tuesday.  German still meets, but it’s a “fun day” where Lissi has decided to have a Q&A and teach everyone to curse in German.  On the one hand, I’m glad I’m not missing testable lecture.  On the other, GODFUCKINGDAMMIT that’s what I wanted to know most!! XD


  • You’re Killing Me With Bacon, America!

    Posted on November 7th, 2008, 2:52 am by Miss Bekka

    First off, I should say, as this is my first entry since the election…. FUCK YEEEEEEEAH!!!  I could get into a good long speech about that, about vision, and change, and “socialism”, but honestly, I’m too drunk.  But I am optimistic, and I believe that change has arrived once more, and I think it is safe once more to have some pride in who we are as Americans.  I know it’s a little naive — perhaps I am too young to know better — but I can’t help but to feel some hope.  I can’t help but feel that things will start to be okay, for the first time in decades. Maybe now we can remember what America was supposed to be.  Maybe now I can be seen as a patriot rather than some damn punk kid bent on seeing the destruction of the establishment.  Maybe now I can reclaim the word “patriot” for what it was always intended to be.  One can hope.  I am sick of taking “unamerican” as a compliment, when it is meant to be an insult.  It’s about damn time this nation return to what we were always meant to be.

    Now that we have that all nice and clear… moving on!

    So, now that we’re over halfway through the semester, I’ve finally found a student-peer I can actually run into on campus and hold a conversation with at random.  It’s sort of nice to have a good, reliable acquaintance around… especially one that I can be quite candid with.  How many people do you know that will say, matter of factly, “I like being in high places… I always feeling like jumping though, even when I’m not suicidal.”  And, while it is an extremely serious topic, you can talk about it as if we were commenting on what we had for lunch today.

    Life.  You’re weird.

    In less morbid news, I got called out in German class tonight as we were discussing the forms of “wollen”.  I was writing feverishly in my notebook, when Lissi figured I would know Rammstein and made me put two and two together.  “Ah, ja, ‘Ich Will’” and etc.  She says she’d play it for the class but didn’t want to start up the smartcart, and then I’m all, “I think I’ve got it on my phone,” and she’s all, “Really? :D ”  So I find it and play it after class.
    :D
    Then I hang back afterwards and ask her if she’d watched the video I told her to watch (Peter Heppner – “Alleinesein”) and she’s all, not yet.  So I told her it’s pretty fresh (August?  September?).  And she started talking about how weird it is being here in the States, missing out on what’s happening back home in Germany… aye aye, I agree, it’s always weird (news from home always seemed so foreign when I was over in Scotland, so I can dig the feeling).  But we talk about music in general, and Peter Heppner… Wolfsheim and Joachim Witt’s “Die Flut” (of which we were both “OMFG I LOVE THAT SONG SO BAD” over… thanks again for that, Chrissi!).  And she says to me what a relief it is to find someone over here that she can get all squeeful about German music with.  She was saying that she’ll start playing music in her office and get all sorts of straaaange looks because it isn’t a common thing over here… I just giggle and say “Oh, don’t feel bad, I get those looks too”.   It just made me happy.
    I am seriously gonna miss her when she goes back home after this semester.  Not only is she an awesome teacher, but she’s just plain awesome in general.  I’m so glad I got to take her class.  But we friended each other on Facebook (yay!), so when I do make a trip to Germany (WHEN, not IF… it WILL happen someday!), I’ll have to see if we can get together and have a drink.

    Ah, and to explain the title of this entry, I picked up the new ohGr today (“Devils In My Details”).  I downloaded the leak, so nothing is new whatsoever (besides being in better-quality), but I’m still happy to have it in my possession.  I’m always happy to support artists I admire.  Makes me feel all warm inside.


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